About parenthood

(Nothing to do with politics or policies, this is just about parenthood. I left the politics out of it)

Thinking about parenthood and the criticism about the most recent birth of multiples, I realized that no one really knows what to be a parent means until it happens to them. I wish I had a clear picture of what it was. I just had a bunch of preconceived ideas of what a perfect mom would be or do in a particular situation, boy was I wrong! Even up until today, I only have expectations, fantasies, and dreams about what I want for my kids, my husband and I to be as a family and how we can work things out to move on that direction; but still the road is bumpy. What I find the hardest is the routine. I keep asking myself if I am doing it right, if my kids are happy even when my patience seems to be falling down at speed of light.

I have been watching TV programs about big families for inspiration and tips on how one can be more creative about living by the day. I also have been reading a lot about that and consulting with my pediatrician, my friend Val, and with my very wise sister, who holds a degree in Education and who have just received an award for being the best teacher of the year (go sis!). From all that, I could only grasp the fact that giving the best of ourselves is key in a family's happiness and therefore is totally worth it; but loving unconditionally and being able to see the purest form of nature is perhaps the best lesson in parenthood there is, at least for me because it keeps it real.

I keep searching for purity in everything I do in life. Every time I see into my children's eyes I can see how great we once were. How did we lose it? Are we really able to restore it? It would be really awesome if we would be able to have the same trust that kids have with the maturity and commitment of adulthood. Kids trust God regardless whatever happens to them, they trust people (their feelings at least), friends, relatives, they trust life in general in a very pure and simple way. I wish I just were like that.

With the birth of the last set of multiples, which by the way I lost count on how many kids there were, I asked myself how a mom can really be able to observe her kids and herself in such a stressful and busy environment? How can she know if she is doing it right? Then I found myself thinking again, well that's what parenthood is about (but especially motherhood), giving oneself up to the greatest sample of perfection there is on earth. One step at a time, letting go, loving, breathing, praying, loving (again), and hoping for the best.